There's something I need to get out of my head.
About two months ago, maybe three, my doctor
called me "hyper responsible".
'Don't know if this is more toward negative or positive (!)
but it bothers me.
Kind of a lot.
Today I felt the need to s t r e t c h
and maybe just scribble
and
not
be
quite
so
responsible.
Maybe.
And though my journal / notebook shelf
looks truly inviting to me right now,
I don't want to look back at my life
and feel I stayed the same,
I stayed on my Shelf,
or
was so darned responsible
that I didn't just let loose more.
I am trying to breathe more deeply
more slowly
and sing louder
laugh more
look ahead
let go of the things I worry about
~ that usually never
happen anyway.
And I've even stopped to smell the flowers along the way
and to close my eyes
and
just
be...
I am learning to meditate again.
Much love,
~k